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Is It Impostor Syndrome, Or Am I Really Fooling Everyone?
We’ve all heard about it, but what does it really feel like?
I have so many courses under my belt, that you would think I’m a successful person. That I am putting all my knowledge to the test on real-life scenarios.
But, in reality, I’m so afraid I can’t move forwards.
I’ve done the uni, I’ve done the masters, I’ve done the weekend course, and the summer school.
I’ve spent so much in education, both time and money, that I’m paralyzed with the idea that it has all been a big waste.
Of course, in the back of my head this tiny girl is yelling at me ‘you’ve got this! You can do it!’ but the rest of my mind is an empty echo chamber with no one to listen to this little hopeful girl.
If you’ve read anything else I’ve written you are wondering how someone that is so much into mindfulness, yoga and says has overcome anxiety, how can someone be so afraid of the ‘what ifs’. But, I’m only human, and my heart has this huge doubt in it.
I know I know stuff. I’ve had experience, and it always comes up as a gratifying realization that my knowledge is actually good. That all those courses have changed me, have made me grow and develop so many skills.
